Begin Again

If obsessing with weight, and general perfectionistic narcissism and procrastination were superpowers I have them.

I am the winningest winner of those issues...okay add humility lacking in the above diagnostic list and we have Cass.

The truth is, like you, I am a lot of things. I am a woman (maybe like you, maybe not). I am the daughter of a heavenly king, and an earthly hero, I am the wife of the most really in true life fairytale love servant leader and soldier (yep...all wrapped up in one blue-eyed hot hubby) and mama to two wicked smart, handsome, genuinely awesome young men and a shepherd pup and his sister cat.

Like you, my life is full of stress, craziness and joy and unfathomable love. I am on a mission to live joyfully. That has been my insta hashtag for forever but today...TODAY....I embrace it in a new way. I really want to embrace happy, manage stress, lose fat, be healthy, and be a good human. If I can "be less of a jerk" like Dan Harris says that would be a solid win.

I am not good at blogging....as you probably noticed already. But instead of leaving that statement like it is a fact I will restate like this: I am not good at blogging, YET.

There are a great number of things I am not good at and most of them things I actually enjoy doing so I do them anyway. Most of my joy is derived from places, things, and relationships of which I don't have to DO anything to feel incredible happiness.... (okay, there is one person that I enjoy that part too...immensly ;) * Boys, if you read that....I love you and I am sorry...not sorry. Obviously, it is true at least twice! LOL

Okay...so here is what you can expect. About once a week I will meet you here. I will share with you where I am on my journey and perhaps you will laugh at or with me. Perhaps you will find that you are angry with me... I will probably be wrong. A LOT. But I am okay with that. I am spending this time chronicling what has been a tremendous challenge for me all my life but especially since I "got sick".  This will likely not be in sequence...if you know me...you know already that I don't do succinct and I love a good story.

This is what I posted on insta today:

 I haven’t been quiet about my health challenges and my middle finger waving at them but what is good is I get up again:) Come on this journey with me...I miss my writing, and I miss my ME, my 2009-2011 me to be exact lol just kidding. 

 Mostly. 

 I want to be that hard bod again but with the mind of 36-year-old me. We have 6 months until we PCS again and with the help of my Naturopath Lauren Steinman, my primary care doc at the clinic, the Army Wellness Center and my new @crossfit_liberty coach Tony (not to forget all my amazing boys and you my friends)I am determined to #beginagain#day1again and I recognize that I will begin again a bunch of times but that is life. I am going to tackle my autoimmunity and the weight I am carrying (metaphysically and physically) with as many tools in the toolbox as I can.

  Prayer, meditation, support, knowledge, some good old fashioned elbow grease (and lots of squats) and I plan to write it out....these #strawberries are for collagen gummies,I got the recipe from https://www.weedemandreap.com/homemade-fruit-snacks/ (btw, that is a super cute blog and she clearly knows what she is doing)  I also am not great at following recipes directly...so mine are slightly different but I encourage you to have a go! It's super good for you and summer is the best time! Here in my town, it is strawberry season so how could I not? 

These yummy egg muffins are eggs, peppers, spinach, green onions, a touch of bacon....because....well bacon......

All this matters to me because I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and it’s the last year my family is a whole in-the-house unit....my baby boy will be flying the nest and I have to do this to squeeze all the juice out of our days together...to create more great memories and show him what it looks like for a woman to love God, her hubby, babies (to include fur babies) and herself WELL. If I lose some weight in the process yay! So here is a small happiness project so I can be better than before like Gretchen Rubin. (More on her fabulousness in other weeks...in the meantime...go here: https://gretchenrubin.com) I think it’s time....don’t you?

Until next week:

Live Joyfully my friends,
Cass

Comments

  1. Christina JumperJune 20, 2019 at 3:13 PM

    Cass - this is beautiful. You are beautiful. And your journey is beautifully messy and amazing. I love you and I'll be here to cheer you on, help lift you up, or lay down kicking and screaming if just for a bit.

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